Why I’m Fasting from Facebook

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There is a blessing and a curse to be found with the stat counter that WordPress gives me.

The blessing is that I know there are some people out there reading my blog. The curse is that I know there are people reading my blog, and that the majority of them are referred through Facebook.

Recently, Facebook has become a huge bummer in my life. Every time I log on, I see people’s endless pictures of happy times with their bff’s, fiances, children, etc… and I’m over here like “lol i don’t have any of that.”

I used to say that I don’t care if people read, and that I would blog anyway. To an extent, that is still true. I would blog, regardless of readership, because putting my thoughts down and out is really important to me.

However, I love knowing that I have readers. It feels like a community, almost. There are people who are taking time out of their day to read what I’m writing, and in the five or so minutes it takes to read a post that I wrote, they are thinking of me. Maybe they will say a prayer for me. And my community expands. Every time someone reads my blog, someone gains a new perspective (that happens to be mine). When I write about things like depression or chastity or dating, I’m putting my spin on my experiences, and perhaps a reader out there needed to hear it. Maybe someone needed to know that someone is suffering through something with them.

Right now, I need community anywhere I can find it. I’m spending a lot of time with my coworkers, and they are great, but I don’t get the Catholic fellowship I desire from them, as fun as they are. I go to the college life bible study at my church and it’s definitely something, but it is not exactly what I want. I know one person well, and everyone else is a stranger, basically. The content is good, but the intellectual aspect is lacking. I go to school online so I’m not getting an in-person experience there either.

My sweet friend, Mary, and I talked about the possibility of creating a home group out here, which would be similar to a household. I miss my household from Denver so much– anything like that out here would be awesome. (PS- any single, Catholic women in Dallas who happen to somehow read this… need community? let me know!) Just women who love Jesus spending time together loving Jesus and each other. I mean, why is that so hard to come about?

In any case, despite my desperation for community, I can’t be on Facebook right now. I’m not going to deactivate it because it’s actually really convenient. And I want readers (shameless, I know.) However, I am fasting. I’m no longer endlessly scrolling through people’s lives and experiencing jealousy and resentment. I’m no longer torturing myself with the images of my ex hanging out with all of my friends as I scramble to meet any people, anywhere, who could even possibly come close to being authentic friends. I can’t do it. I’m exhausted.

I’m remaining on other social media and am reachable if anyone should want to contact me.

Just not on Facebook. Sigh. I never thought I would come to this. I used to truly love Facebook.

Read this and have a better day.

Love love love!

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7 Responses to Why I’m Fasting from Facebook

  1. Amy says:

    Prayers for you, sweet girl.
    Prayers that you find peace, happiness and fellowship in your new city. I love you!

  2. Hang in there! It can be tough to find a community like you are searching for but just stay strong in your faith and I think that by “fasting” from facebook you will find it is easier to forget things you feel you are missing out on. The truth is you aren’t missing out on anything! Just enjoy the wonderful things God has given you and keep an eye out for new opportunities to meet other people. God Bless!

    • You are so sweet. Thank you! It is an important reminder. And the truth is, even if I am “missing out,” if I dwell on it, I truly miss out on the life that I am living! I just have to keep living in the present!

  3. Good luck with your fast from Facebook! I deleted my account about a year and a half ago (I deleted my Twitter account as well) and the effect has been liberating. I feel more focused, and have A LOT more free time.

    • Thank you! Yes, definitely so on the free time! It’s a good thing to have as a back up because I do have friends in a lot of places, but I don’t need to spend endless time scrolling.

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